I Say a Little Prayer For You... :)~

Well my readers......tomorrow is the big day.........
I have been dreading it ever since the doc told me I needed this surgery back in June......
But, it has to be done!......Without it, I will never work in my field again....it's bad enough that I may not be able to go back to working on the line.....but we'll see about that!

You see...... I am one of the lucky ones who actually enjoys what they do for a living.
Food is my PASSION....Particularly The Restaurant/ Catering Life!
When I am in the kitchen concocting creations for others to enjoy eating, is when I am at my happiest!
I miss everything about it!!!!... From the kitchen banter.....to the adrenalin rush I get for those few hours a day when my ticket line is full......
Ahhhhhh, and the instant gratification I get when all my food has gone out without any complaints!.......
And then there are the greatest of moments......When a server, or even the customer themselves, comes into the kitchen and raves about the food...It just makes me feel good when I can make someone else happy with my food!!!!

Soooooo.... needless to say, I have to have this surgery if I want to go back what I love.
Now I know I've said it a million times, but I am scared shitless!!!...I just want it to be Wednesday afternoon already. When I wake up from anesthesia and someone tells me that everything went just fine!!!....

Here is a little note my Auntie E sent me this morning...I hope she doesn't mind me sharing it with you all....But it is something I would like for you all you to do for me.....

It's PRAY.....Please PRAY for me to whatever god you believe in...
And if ya don't pray or believe in anything....how about some positive energy sent my, and Kat's way tomorrow!
I'll take all I can get!........here is my aunts letter.

Hey TMC,

About your operation... I will pray for you this week and for your operation. I'll pray that your body accepts the medication and that the surgeon's hands are steady and sure. I will pray for peace and comfort in your operating room and that the angel's of light are protecting you. If there are any other concerns that I can pray for you, please let me know.

And, I'll pray for a speedy recovery.

I'm sure I'll hear from your mom how you (and Kat) are doing. Just so you know that I'm thinking of you.

Breathe baby, breathe... PEACE to you!... Love, AEM

I'M SCARED!!!... :)~

There were some people with birthdays while I was on vaca that I would like to give a shout out to!!!......My god-daughter Sara, and her older sister Anna....They were born on the same day, two years apart.... My Aunt E-Marie who's b-day was on Friday the 13....and our Mini-Pincer Alex who turned 12 on the 12th...

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MY SURGERY... :)~

I haven't really blogged about this much....I'm soooo friggin' scared!!!! I keep having nightmares...and bad visions of things going wrong in the operating room....I know...I know...toooo much tv... Ha!...Thank god Kat will be here with me through all this!

It has been 5 months today since the accident at work.....It is starting to hit home that the surgery is imminent, and not that far in the future. I had my final appointment this morning with the Ortho/spine guy. He is the last doc to see before I start booking my pre-surgery apts...... Here is what they will be doing to me.....

I will have two of my discs replaced and fused. So I will have a titanium plate, and two screws in my neck. (Now I will have an excuse for having a screw loose...LOL)....They HAVE to take bone from my hip to replace the discs. I thought I was going to be able to use the cadaver bone...........But I have the nasty habit of smoking, and also am having multiple replacements done.... Sooooo........
I really don't want pain anywhere else, but the healing rate is better if I use my own bone...

I just want this to all be over......Worker's Comp takes their sweet time about approving everything....So much time has been wasted!!!...I could've been almost recovered by now if not for all the RED TAPE bullshite!