Say a Little Prayer ... Part Deux

Sorry if this post is all over the place , and scatter brained...Please bear with me and read on... :)~

OK my peeps, I need you all again!......Since your prayers, and positive energy seemed to do me a world of good. I thought I might impose upon you all again.

This Thursday I received the most devastating news in all my 41years...
I got a call from my Auntie Pat asking me how quickly I could get to my moms house....she said that my mom and her were on their way home from the doctor.
Her and my Auntie E have been a tag teaming machine with taking her to all her appointments since this January when my mom's insurance kicked in.......

I can't say that I was shocked by what I knew I was about to hear.....I just didn't know that it was going to be this bad.....I've been preparing for this moment since she started going to the docs.....

OK , I'm just gonna say it.......
She has Small Cell Lung CANCER.....
F--ck! .... I hate saying it out loud.....It just makes it more real.....Cause I am still in a haze over all this.

It's not bad enough that it's Cancer.....It's the kind that will never go away...She HAD to start Chemotherapy, and Radiation on Friday, the very next day, cause she only has two weeks to live otherwise... My mom has said to us in the past that if she did have cancer that she wouldn't do the chemo....but I don't think she is ready to die yet.....Especially when she would only have a very short time left.

So early Friday morning I met my mom, and Auntie Pat at the hospital.....It's where I have been since......It's now 3:52 pm on Sunday, and this is my first real break....

I could see how scared my mom was when they told us...So I asked her if she would like me to stay with her over night..... Her eyes lit up, and she said "you will do this with me"......." Of course I will", I told her.....I can't leave you here all alone at night.

My Auntie Pat and Auntie E have been awesome!!. I don't know what I would do with out them!!! During the day from like noon to 9 pm they have been a great tag team once again being there for their sister.....But I really needed a break today.....So I asked my sister if she would come do a shift from 4-8. Going back again tonight to sleep with her....She is supposed to be released tomorrow, but her docs weren't sure about that this morning. So we will see.....If she does, I will be staying with her until we figure it out.

We don't really have a plan of attack yet...... We don't want her to be alone....She will be on oxygen....which she began doing a few days before at home. Plus, she is so short of breath doing the simplest of things......Not to mention what the side effects from the Chemo and Radiation are going to do to her. They say it takes a day or two after the treatments to feel the full effects to kick in....... When she is home of course......and she will also loose her hair in two weeks. Ironically, my mom was a hair dresser for over 20 years..... and so is my sister for almost as long. She will be the one to have to cut mom's, past the middle of her back hair, that mom has kept that long since the early 80's. We will see if they accept hair that that has gone through Chemo/Rad to donate. Hair is only alive at the follicle.....So maybe.

So it's 5:38 now, I need to get off this computer, eat something, and get ready for duty.
I just wanted to ask everyone out there who reads this... whether you know me or not.... to please take the time to "Say a Little Prayer", or send some good juju my Mom's way!
Actually for us all....

Oh yeah, I almost forgot.....My sister Lisa and I quit smoking over a month ago.....I did it a week before my surgery, so I would heal better. She has been on again, off again quiting for almost a year....If this doesn't make my whole family quit forever... I don't know what will...

Peace Outie.......TMC